Ups and Downs

Ok, so I know that I promised that I would be back much more after I moved in to the new house, but, like I always, something always comes up.

Things have been kind of a roller coaster for me lately.  Every time something good happens, something bad happens as well.  I finally had to break down and tell my parents that I did not get in to the licensing exam this time (which was bad and stressful).  Surprisingly they took it well and supported me, which was very unexpected.  Before anyone asks, I do have a good reason to expect them to get very upset.  My father once yelled at me about how I needed "to grow up" because I told him our internet service had gone down.  Yes, that really happened, he really did yell at me for that.  So that was good, but now I have to re-apply, which is a pain in the ass.

I've been settling in to my new home, which comes with its own stresses.  Its been very tiring.  I still haven't even managed to go food shopping, so my fridge is basically empty.  Which is why, yesterday, since my boss didn't stop for lunch anywhere, I did not eat until I got home, roughly twenty four hours from my last meal.  I have a hyper active metabolism, so thats not good.

I've also been hired to do weekend commission work.  Its good money, I get 500 bucks a day over the course of two weekends for a total of 2000 dollars.  Not too shabby.  But it is out of state, so it means a long drive and a hotel stay, plus a lot of work for me.  So very tiring.  In fact, I had a problem with the work done this past weekend, and now have to figure out how to fix it.

And, of course, issues with my S.O. continue to be difficult.  My S.O. did in fact take the job in San Diego, which has strained our relationship badly.  I won't go back into all the details why right now, but there are a lot of difficulties.  However, whenever I try to face those problems and accept reality, my S.O. gets mad and starts jumping all over me.  To me, I think we need to be honest about where things stand.  We have to face and address the problems if we are to over come them, as well as accept the possibility that we can't.  But every time my S.O. lashes out at me for doing so, it makes it that much less likely we can succeed.  We have, however, agreed that, should opportunity arise, we would not hold back from giving someone else a chance as long as we are honest to everyone involved.  So, in a way, I am sort of back on the market.  Granted, considering that the last time I tried internet dating the computerized matching algorythm flat out told me that I'm too weird to ever date (true story), I figure I have about as much of finding someone as I do of catching fish in the desert.

I'm going to try and be around more.  I know I've said this before, but I do want to.  I have a bunch of captions floating around in my head, and it gives me something to think about that isn't all the crap going on.  But I'm not going to promise this time, because I don't like breaking promises, no matter the reason.