So it has been quite some time since I've posted to the blog. Many of you, if you still check in, may wonder what has kept me from here. Much has been going on in my life, and sadly none of it good.
For starters, my car decided to commit suicide. The engine, for reasons as of yet unknown, destroyed itself when I was making a trip to see a friend. I had less than 50k miles on it. Toyota, despite all physical evidence to the contrary, claimed that it was caused by an oil leak. Which does not explain why their was enough oil left on the side of the road to have prevented the damage, nor why the low oil indicator did not come on until After visible smoke was coming from the hood due to oil burning off as it hit the hot engine. Needless to say, they have refused to cover the repairs, which includes replacing the engine. Fortunately I have an excellent insurance company, and we were able to get them to cover the costs. Don't buy a Toyota.
Second, many of you may remember that I had gotten into a Kigurumi, a type of cosplay that involves wearing a mask based on anime characters. You may remember that I had finally gotten my mask, and how proud I was of it. Well in just the few short months that I was part of the kigurumi community, I was attacked, insulted, and treated with such a lack of respect by so called fellow performers (some of whom I had thought of as friends), that I am quitting entirely. I've already made arrangements for the disposal of my mask and gear. I'll go back to regular cosplay, where in the nearly ten years I've been doing it and thousands of people I've met, I've never been treated with anything less than the utmost kindness and courtesy, even by those who had no idea what cosplay was. Needless to say, this has been quite upsetting for me.
There have been other things as well, that I won't list in detail at the time, that have conspired to keep me from here.
The good news, though, is that I have started captioning again. Its a bit slow getting back into the groove, I'm a bit rusty. But I'll get back in the groove a little at a time, and soon you'll have new works by me to enjoy. So, for those of you who still visit my blog, thank you for the patience. Your wait is, hopefully, over and soon new captions, stories and random thoughts will begin to appear.
I say that you should continue to do your Kigurumi. If you love doing it, then fuck what everyone else thinks. Those people weren't truly your friends if they treat you that way. Are they the authority in the Kigurumi community? I highly doubt it because I doubt that there is an authority. As long as you're having fun and not causing actual harm to others, then do what you want.
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I understand what you mean, I really do, but the problem is that it just isn't fun anymore. I look at the mask and all I feel is anger and hurt. When I think of cosplay, I think of laughing with my friends, posing for pictures, making others laugh at my antics, and all manner of good memories. I used to feel that way about kigurumi, but the spark is gone, replaced by the feeling of betrayal. Maybe one day that would fade, but I tend to doubt it. It is both my blessing and curse that I have a very good memory. Its hard to even put on the mask, let alone have fun with it anymore. Its better to give it up and focus on things that will make me happy.
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