Poor Angel

So its official.  The house is sold.  The only home I've known, and I've been told I have to get out by the end of June.  Its heartbreaking really.  There is so much here that can't be packed up and brought along.  The trees that were the closest thing to friends I had growing up.  The bathroom we just redid, that I did so much work on.  The caulking job on the tile I was so proud of in the kitchen.  The carpet for my room I picked out all on my own as kid.  So much will be left behind.

It wouldn't be so bad if it were my choice.  Especially if I was moving to a home of my own.  Unfortunately, that is not the case.  I have no place to go.  A friend is loaning me a room in a condo nearby.  Said friend's job also got moved out of state.  So I can stay until my friend either gets a new job here, or after one year they will sell off the condo.  Its low income housing, so I can't buy it.  I'm grateful, really, but it isn't mine.  Its not my home.  The room I have is much smaller than what I have now.  And the decorations, well, they really don't suit me.  And I can't change them, can't repaint, or hang shelves, or anything else I might wish, because its not mine.  I'm just crashing there.  So I really will not be comfortable, and everyone needs a place they feel comfortable in.

Also, there is the matter of the max 1 year time limit.  I have, at most, 1 year to find a place of my own.  Trouble is, on my salary I can not afford anything.  Dirt is expensive as hell.  There is no way I can afford anything that has so much as a square foot of land with it.  In fact, on my salary, I can' afford anything that Doesn't have property attached to it either.  I can't even afford to buy a trailer in a trailer park.  No, I'm not being sarcastic.  I actually looked into that as an option.  Some of you are probably wondering, why not rent?  Well, aside from renting being a waste of money, average rent rates are six to eight hundred dollars MORE a month than what it would cost in mortgage and monthly fees for a condo.  So if I could afford to rent, I'd be better off buying a condo anyway.  Needless to say, this is a very stressful time for me.

I've been trying to come up with ways to make more money.  I am owed some raises at work.  The trouble is, with the economy down, no one is getting raises.  And that is also why I can't simply get a new job, people in my field are still getting laid off, not hired.  Eventually I'll be able to take the licensing exam, and that makes me more marketable.  But the next chance isn't till April, assuming that I qualify, and assuming that I pass, it still does not gurantee me increased salary any time soon.  Plus there is the chance that I need to be out before I even get to take it.  A second job doesn't work, because my current job doesn't have fixed hours.  Some days I might be home by lunch, other days I'm not home till 8 or 9 at night.  I've thought about trying to make some money here on the internet, but I have no marketable skills.  I have no artistic or creative ability, so I can't sell drawings or artwork or other such things.  I can't provide any sort of content that could be used in a pay website. 

All in all, I just don't know what its going to happen at this time.