Nobody Understands

I'm so freaking tired of this.

Why do people keep expecting me to be happy and excited about moving?  I'm being kicked out of the only home I've ever had, losing my one little place of the universe that was almost mine.  I've got nowhere to go, so I have to stay at a friend's.  So now I'm paying a lot of money for a single, significantly smaller, room that I can't do anything to make more comfortable.  The walls are painted a terrible color, but I can't change them.  I can't make a single hole in the walls, so I can't hang anything up.  I don't even have room for most of my belongings, including things like my costume making supplies, something which anyone who knows me knows is a major passion of mine, and I'm still reliant on my parents so I'm not even getting out from under their rule.  Plus I get to add a whole bunch of someone else's rules on top of that, and I'm supposed to be happy?

Oh, and lets not forget that this is a TEMPORARY arrangement, and that I have, AT MOST, one year before I have to be out.  So I have to find, and purchase, something I can afford before then.  And yet everyone keeps telling me that I should wait and get my license before I try to find a house.  Wonderful idea.  Too bad its FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE.  The license exam is in April.  That's about 9 months from now.  It takes several months to find out if you passed or not.  Even assuming I pass (because if I fail I don't get another chance until the next April), I likely won't know until at least June or July that I have a license.  So that leaves me, at best, 1 month to find a new job that pays better, save up enough money for a down payment, find, go through the closing process, and purchase a house of my own (a process that takes usually well over a month by itself, simply by virtue of the necessary inspections, contracts, etc) and move in.  And that is all assuming that I pass and recieve notification by June.  Any delay and I'm living in my car.  Yet when I tell people this, I'M the idiot who doesn't know what he's talking about because everyone else knows so much more than me.